barbara_hambly: No hiking today

barbara_hambly (

barbara_hambly) wrote,
@ 2008-02-24 08:42:00

Current location:	Here
Current music:	Heater rumbling, cats purring

No hiking today
I was supposed to go hiking this morning; not going to happen.

Cold, wet, and gray - raining all night. Woke up under a pile of cats. Love that soft beauty when I take the dog out early, there's no sound but the crows.

The re-write of Homeland is all-consuming and exhausting, the different structure suggested by my editor pushing me into areas of my own heart and life that I find disturbing and dark. It's hard to write and emotionally very exhausting, and I'm doing nothing else these days: sleeping, writing, and class-prep and teaching work. People ask me, "How's your writing going?" and I want to say, "Can we talk about something else?" But since that opens the conversational meme of, "Gosh, you sound troubled about it, can you give me a full explanation and re-hash of all the things about the publishing industry that really bother you?" though I do appreciate the concern, I generally just say, "Fine. How's your life going?"

That's why I love days like this one, with large blocks of time to work in. Maybe I'll cut out a shirt during the technical awards and speeches portion of Oscar-night tonight.

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	Icon Change! ankhorite 2008-02-24 05:12 pm UTC (link)
	It's hard to feel sorry for someone who wakes up under a pile of cats. :) Nice new icon! Perhaps it will offset a bit of the "disturbing and dark." Perhaps the sheer frivolity of the Oscars will. I'm going to the home of friends. They will have Oscar ballots ready. I'm bringing a set of dress ballots. (Reply to this)(Thread)

	Re: Icon Change! barbara_hambly 2008-02-24 05:59 pm UTC (link)
	Actually, I did a little tidying and changing of colors at my Journal page, and it does feel lighter and brighter. Perhaps I feel the onset of spring. (Reply to this)(Parent)

ro_anshi
2008-02-24 05:27 pm UTC (link)

I was going to comment "Hey, great new icon!" but I see the commenter above me already did that. ;) (But I like, I do.)

Mom and I had to cancel our trip to Montrose today (outdoor festival she's been looking forward to for a month) for the same cold-and-wet reason you can't hike. Rain, rain, go away.

Maybe I'll cut out a shirt during the technical awards and speeches portion of Oscar-night tonight.

My plans exactly, save the shirt is Angelo's. I found a Poet Shirt pattern sized for SD-13 boys on eBay!

Off to church. Have a good, stress-free day, m'dear.

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	barbara_hambly 2008-02-24 05:57 pm UTC (link)
	Uh - are there MANY patterns for SD-13s on e-Bay? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

ro_anshi
2008-02-25 06:15 am UTC (link)

are there MANY patterns for SD-13s on e-Bay?

Not many, but a few. And the Poet Shirt pattern I bought is the sole BOY pattern I've ever seen on there. I also bought a "separates" pattern for the SD-13 girl; three of the pieces are virtually identical to items I want to make for Jessica, so there's half my work done for me.

Now if I only needed ready-to-wear emo goth clothing shipped at high cost from Korea or Hong Kong, I'd have it made on eBay.

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	londonbard 2008-02-24 06:13 pm UTC (link)
	I like your new icon too, and I wish you a peaceful day when the right words come easily. (Reply to this)(Thread)

	barbara_hambly 2008-02-24 07:09 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you. I have ALWAYS liked your icon of the walking kitty. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	londonbard 2008-02-25 12:42 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you, I'm so glad, it was especially made for me by starwatching and it even moves just like my old Tiger. He was an adopted feral with a lot of personality. Have you seen the Emilystrange Ying and Yang kitties? It's the perfect icon for a peaceful day. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	londonbard 2008-02-25 02:02 pm UTC (link)
	PS - and I had the kind of weekend that leads to brain-frying and commented with the wrong icon. (Reply to this)(Parent)

writergirlie
2008-02-24 07:28 pm UTC (link)

Though I can not even begin to compare myself to you as a writer (to do so would be incredibly presumptuous!!), I can relate to the part about being emotionally exhausted by certain writing projects. The novel I'm working on is extremely personal and I've been surprised by the outpour of emotions sometimes that I experience when I'm done writing a scene or a chapter.

And I suppose it doesn't help that my "day job" is all consuming right now as well, so I feel like one giant, raw nerve when I sit down to write. Little wonder my characters are all on the edge at the moment ;).

Hope the sun is out in your part of the state--up here in the Bay Area it is still gloomy and miserable.

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	dracschick 2008-02-25 01:21 am UTC (link)
	good luck with your projects! (Reply to this)

evergrey
2008-02-25 05:34 am UTC (link)

Heh, yeah, for me it's kinda like that with:

"Oh hey, how is your back?"
What I think is "it is a chronic injury, so same as always: it causes me constant pain and I get really depressed because I cannot work a normal job, go hiking, dance, or do other active things that make me feel happy and fulfilled. Also, I am completely out of money with no idea how I'm going to pay rent, let alone pay for my medications, and I can't do much about it because of the injury, so I'm really anxious and even more depressed about that. Also, I have gained back the 75 pounds I worked so hard for years to lose. Thanks for asking."
What I say is "Oh, meh, ya know, it's okay." or "Fine. How are things with you?"

:/

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